Oh Sahabatku!

Ku tanyakanmu dulu
Kenapa pernah cemburu
Kau tidak menjawabku
Diam di sana membisu

Ku cuba bertanya lagi
Teman,mengapa berdiam diri
Ku hanya menggeleng kepala
Tak pasti apa berlaku padanya

Tiba-tiba kau menghilang diri
Entah ke mana kau telah pergi
Tapi bila dapat tahu
Dari teman baikku, rupa2nya..
Kau jatuh cinta padaku..

Oh teman, oh sahabat sejatiku
Kenapa ingin kau menyeksa dirimu
Ku tahu perasaanmu padaku
Ku tahu perasaanku padaku
Tahu kah kau juga mencintai dirimu..

Sebuah Puisi untuk Sahabat

Ku hitung hari ku bersamamu,
Walau ku rasa pedih kehilanganmu,
Sinar pelangiku bakal tiada,
Kekalutanku bakal menjelma..

Tidak terbatas waktu ku mengenalimu,
Kaulah sahabat sehidup matiku,
Walau kau jauh beribu batu,
Hati kita tetap bersatu..

Cahaya hatiku sentiasa menyuluh,
Ke mana jua langkahmu kau bawa,
Kenangan terindah sentiasa menemani,
Bersama doa ku iringi..

Rinduku seluas lautan, setinggi angkasa,
Bawalah cintaku ke mana kau pergi,
Ke hujung dunia, ke puncak tertinggi..

awkwardly insane 

With just one glance, with just one stare,

You took my breath away,

My heart is melting with your one touch,

It brings me to a different world,

A world like no others..

I’m awkwardly insane,

By the thought of not having you around,

My sleepless night were shadowed by your absence,

Imagining your embrace, imagining your kiss,

 My heart became swollen,

And it was sliced piece by piece when you were gone..

How I wish you were here,

Counting the stars with me,

With a reflection of full moon on the sea,

Reminiscing our beautiful memories,

The night breezes that hug me tightly,

Calling out your name silently..

The hole in my heart is deepened,

Crying out loud but no one could hear,

Nothing in the world would ever understand,

How sick is this love that would never wane..

The touch of your hand awaken me,

With just one glance, with just one stare,

It stroked straight to my deepest soul,

And purely cure my broken feelings..

Now my heart is melting again,

Flowered by the smile of happiness,

And Oh yeah,

The notion of your disappearance,

Was only my foolish imagination,
Cause you are really there,
Sitting right beside and smiling at me...

written by Andy Siti (13 January 2012)

New Year: For reflection or resolutions?

New Year is for us to reflect what we have done in the past, what have u become, what have u achieved, and what you have learnt. On the first day of the New Year, some people wake up to the memories of the last night’s countdown, while for some people, it is just the beginning of yet another day. Talking about New Year and all these things, I asked myself the above questions. What have I done, achieved, become and learnt? I remember when I asked myself 5 years ago, “What can you see yourself in 5 years time?” My answer was, I’m gonna have a stable job, a car, financial freedom etc. I’ve achieved some of those, but when I think back, that answers were damn lame, parochial and superficial. There are things inside me that I’ve not achieved. Very deep and hidden in my soul, which I can’t think of now. 

Most of the times, when we are approaching the New Year or even the first month of the new year, the first thing I ask myself is, What are my resolutions for the year? I asked everyone around me, mostly my besties, what are their new resolutions. Everyone has their own. For me, resolutions help me to navigate through the year, keep me on track, work harder and be disciplined. Despite having all well-planned resolutions, the best-laid plans of men and mice can often go awry due to unforeseen circumstances. As a matter of fact, I don’t keep my promise. Now you know what are exactly my new resolutions. To keep my promises, and whatever I do, I should paddle my own canoe. I’ve learnt a lot these years. A lot. Punctuality, time management, self-reliant, sincerity, honesty, discipline. Some of my good friends might say I’m a hypocrite for writing this, yup yup I learnt these things all these years, but did I exactly absorb everything. No. So here I am, admitting my mistakes, hoping that this year I can be someone better. Better than before.

A habit can turn into a character. So beware of your bad habits.

Just to let things out from the small pea in my head. Happy New Year everyone. :)

Where does my heart go?

I've been with working with this one department in one and only university in Penang. Basically i'm managing cultural event that endorsed by our university. My part are mainly building contacts, public relation work, promote and market our department and at the same time trying to get sponsorship from other companies outside. To get higher KPI or KIP, we are supposed to get as high income as we can and bring it in to our department. 

Well, I've been working for almost 3 months as a cultural officer in this department. I like it sometimes, but most of the times I'm flooded with boredom. Not sure whether it is because of the working environment or my job scope. As usual I'm a bit lost at the moment. Feel that something is pulling me down. My mind and action are not free. I've been told by so many friends to get out of the university. Go out and face the world! But due to my lack of confidence, I pulled back myself. I should have taken the step out to the world long before! I should have done it earlier! This year (2011) is considered my 7 years here. Singing, acting, doing research, representing university in sports day, all that I've done since I stepped in here. I'm pampered by the university, things here are easy to get. Less challenges, the working environment is so laid back, the staff in the department are spoon feed that makes them so lazy to do other task if they are not asked. No initiative at all! My friend told me I was a different person after I worked with this department. I'm pulled down, I have different way of thinking, close-minded, etc. OMG. When I think back, yes, I am! It happened so fast. I dont even know what is pulling me down here. Still looking, still searching.. and still observing.. 

I was a different person last few months, or last few years. I'm not the kind of girl that could just sit and relax. I was energetic person, open-minded,independent and not easily influenced, but it has changed now. What can I do to see myself clearly? I want to go out from this country. That has been in my plan since I was born. I want to go out and face the cruel world. But why am I still here? My friends are going out to chase their dreams. And I'm here left alone. 

Chase your dreams! Wake up! Dont let anyone stop u and pull u down! Be strong! Be brave! and be faithful to yourself! That's in my mind now. And a small part of my heart saying "Andy, you are stupid for not doing it earlier. " Bla... bla.. bla.. But It's never too late for anything. I'll make an improvement on myself. 

You will see it. 

Andy Siti

Save Water For Life.

I just came back from this event called "World Water Day 2011". It's an annual event organized by Water Watch Penang and was held at Taman Metropolitan, Relau. I was the emcee for the event. At first, I was so nervous when Prof. Chan, the President of Water Watch Penang asked me do it. I just said yes, but didn't really want to do it. Being an emcee is my fear. I use to reject few offers that  offered me to become the emcee for one particular event. Reason is, that's my biggest fear! But thanks to my best friends Nawal and Christina who were there to help me during the scripting. Now I really enjoy becoming an emcee. The best thing is, I finally overcome my fear!!! Yeah!!! 

The event went well. Over 200 hundreds of kids participated in the Watercolour Painting Competition. There were 5 categories, and each categories were divided into certain age group. The winners walked away with bicycles! What a nice gift. 

The event was recommended at the 1992 United Nation Conference  on Environment and Development (UNICED) in Rio de Jenerio, Brazil. The United Nation General Assembly then responded by designating 22 March 1993 as the 1st World Water Day and since then, it has become an important date where the event is held annually. The purpose for this event is to  focus attention and to create awareness about the importance of fresh water and the importance of sustainable management of freshwater resources in the world. 

97.5% of the water on earth are salt water and the remaining 2.5% is freshwater of which two-thirds is frozen that leaves only 1% or 2.8 million trillion liters of water for all the plants, animal and 6.9 billion of human being living on our planet today. The scariest fact is, water is limited.

In Penang, we are completely relying only to one source which is the Sungai Muda for 80% of our raw water. Raw rain water is obviously free, but treated tap water costs money.To develop a second raw water source for example like new dams, pump stations or reservoirs, it will take years and million or even billions of ringgit just for the sake of it.  Raw water needs to be stored and treated before it is supplied to our tap at home or office. Water supply costs, including electricity, chemical, maintenance and manpower costs have increased by 64% in the past 10 years and it will definitely increase each passing year. In a research that was conducted by PBAPP, out metered water consumption increased by 45.9% from 536 million liters per day in 1999 to 782 million liters per day in 2010. This means that water consumption in Penang increased by average of 3.8% per annum in the past 12 years, and it will continue to increase each year. 

Each year we have this campaign of creating awareness about the importance of fresh water, but yet the water consumption is still increasing. The rivers are still polluted with rubbish, and I have to agree with an officer from the Department of Irrigation and Drainage (Penang) said that yes our river is polluted, but yet our people are more polluted. Can't they even think of the consequences after throwing rubbish in the river? Pity this kind of people. They should have come to this event and educate themselves about environment. 

Penang Government are subsidizing our water bills for charging us the lowest water tariff in Malaysia. However, they will impose a surcharge for any individuals, or companies that are consuming more than 35,000 litter a month, by charging them RM 0.24 for every 1,000 litter (1 cubic meter). Yeah it's good for some people but for me, the government should have increased the water surcharge for the Penangites. Maybe RM1 for every cubic meter of water. If they have to use more, they have to pay more, and that is fair. If the water is subsidized, people will take it for granted and waste more water instead coz they dont care about saving water. And this will not encourage water saving amongst consumers in Penang. In Malaysia, people are using 300 litters/capita/day daily, and it's almost double the benchmark that was recommended by the United Nation (UN) which is 165 LCD. While in Singapore, they are using only 150 LCD per day, in India 100 LCD per day and in Africa 50 LCD per day! Selangor government subsidize 1.5 million household  'free water' (less than 20 cubic meter) due to their election promise while it is a state which is running out of water and have to buy water from Pahang. Ironic? Absolutely. 

So guys, let us be a caring society. Save water for life. Make every drop counts. Water is vital in life, so save as much water as you can because we never know what lies ahead. We can change the world if we start saving water from now. For our family, and for our future. 

Think about our future. We can make a change. 

Resources:

• Articles by Prof. Chan Ngai Weng, President of Water Watch Penang
• Water Supply Corporation (PBAPP)
• www.waterwatchpenang.org 
• www.unwater.org
• The Star Newspaper articles

Apalah nasib kamu.

Aku kesian mengingatkan nasib orang2 kampung Pasir Putih, Tawau yang baru-baru ni dilanda banjir. Sedih aku melihat nasib mereka selepas kejadian ni berlaku. Banjir teruk yang melanda kampung ku ni memang sangat dasyat sehingga mengakibatkan orang kampung kehilangan harta benda, rumah, kereta. Lepas habis banjir, kebakaran pulak yang terjadi akibat litar pintas. Apa lah nak jadi dengan nasib orang kampung ni. But I believe, there's always a blessing in disguise.

The flash flood hit the village on the 29th July 2010. Last year, just a few days before my performance at the Royal Concert held in USM. But surprisingly, up till today, there's no changes in the village. Flood still going on. It now becomes a routine. Sad sad sad. Aku pelik jugak kenapa kampung ni tak dibantu. Siapa yang nak dipersalahkan? Since aku dah lama tak balik kampung, jadi aku pun tak tau apa kesinambungan cerita banjir kilat ni. Aku hanya mampu membantu dari jauh saja. Dari USM. Kau bayangkan, merentasi laut lagi kami bantu. Itu pun dak mencukupi. Betul kata Ketua Kampung pasir putih, kita bagi berapa pun tak pernah akan mencukupi.Apa2 pun, aku mengharapkan agar orang2 besar Pasir putih will open up their eyes. 

Only God knows how we feel.