Gloomy Days.

How I wish I could change my feelings now. I'm in a dark hole, trying to find a light. Who should I depend on? Even I dont know what brought me here. I'm confused. Feel like goin away, to a place that nobody cares. Talk to any objects, even they dont reply. I dont wanna depend on friends, I believe I annoy them too much for behaving this way. I should start depending on myself now. Fully. Like last time. Attachment makes it so hard to go back to the old me. For me, going away is the best way to handle it. Probably for a while.

I feel less excitement in everything I do now. Totally. Sometimes I was just faking it in front of everyone that I was happy, tried so hard to cover it from being seen by any of my friends, but I failed. They read me. I can lie to them, but I can't lie to myself. That's why going away from them is a solution.

I'm looking for my real rainbow now. Please come.

There must be somewhere over the rainbow.